WHAT'S UP DEAR HEART?
Saturday 14 September 201306:13
HOPELESS
Well, wazzup there? I'm like a dolly now. I don't know what I wanna do in my life. I don't know when it begin. When I look back, I'm such an ambitious girl before. I wanna be a lecturer. A professional motivator. Now? I don't know what I wanna be. It same just like a lifeless body. Sound silly huh? I'm gonna sit for STPM third term, and I don't know if there's some hope residues left. As a Science Student, I'm not a person capable for it. You know? If only I am not in Science Class, I think I can do better in my exam. But it's too late. Cruel. My BM and Sejarah were A+, my science subject grade were suck. Why I'm in Science Class?
POSITIVE SIDE: Maybe I will learned a great lesson later. What I Have to do now is work harder and fiercely. I hate when people keep saying that they're pity of me, seeing my exam results that completely a trash. I will shut their mouth. So far, I'm in process to complete my PBS task. Ya Allah, please give me a strength. I don't know where I can find a source of strength anymore. I keep praying so HE will show me the way. But, I believed HE helps me when I try to give an effort to chance. And, In progress, I'm trying.
I NEED A BOYFRIEND?
As a girl, well.... I have falling in love many times. However, I'm too shy. It's ridiculous when I back to the memory as I confessed my feeling for the very first time to someone. It's kinda childish too. Face-to-face. Then I act awkward afterward. Gee! It's a history. Form Three. Teehee! *nigahiga*
Once, I have a boyfriend. We have a problem in communication, cause I never shown my real feelings. Now? I'm in cloud nine. Sometimes, I can even like more than one guy. As long as he has my criteria. It's not my real feeling. Just little bit lonely. I even don't enjoy texting anymore. I'm easily bored. I've got Encik Daun Pisang's number from my friend, but again, I shy. Haha!~ Maybe I will just follow Ryan Higa's footsteps to be single for a while. I hate when get hurt. Imagine, if I couple and break up for many times, is it means I have maybe 5. 7 or 20 ex-boyfriend? Hurm... Then I bubbling to my daughter that was....This is... MY EX-BOYFRIENDS.
POSITIVE SIDE: I never knew if my true love is around me, or maybe someone unexpected, or my ex again? Who knew? ALLAH know.
Cheer up! Tomorrow will be a great day. (^^,)
Labels: depression, love of my life, single
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