WHAT'S UP DEAR HEART?
Saturday, 14 September 201306:13
HOPELESS
Well, wazzup there? I'm like a dolly now. I don't know what I wanna do in my life. I don't know when it begin. When I look back, I'm such an ambitious girl before. I wanna be a lecturer. A professional motivator. Now? I don't know what I wanna be. It same just like a lifeless body. Sound silly huh? I'm gonna sit for STPM third term, and I don't know if there's some hope residues left. As a Science Student, I'm not a person capable for it. You know? If only I am not in Science Class, I think I can do better in my exam. But it's too late. Cruel. My BM and Sejarah were A+, my science subject grade were suck. Why I'm in Science Class?
POSITIVE SIDE: Maybe I will learned a great lesson later. What I Have to do now is work harder and fiercely. I hate when people keep saying that they're pity of me, seeing my exam results that completely a trash. I will shut their mouth. So far, I'm in process to complete my PBS task. Ya Allah, please give me a strength. I don't know where I can find a source of strength anymore. I keep praying so HE will show me the way. But, I believed HE helps me when I try to give an effort to chance. And, In progress, I'm trying.
I NEED A BOYFRIEND?
As a girl, well.... I have falling in love many times. However, I'm too shy. It's ridiculous when I back to the memory as I confessed my feeling for the very first time to someone. It's kinda childish too. Face-to-face. Then I act awkward afterward. Gee! It's a history. Form Three. Teehee! *nigahiga*
Once, I have a boyfriend. We have a problem in communication, cause I never shown my real feelings. Now? I'm in cloud nine. Sometimes, I can even like more than one guy. As long as he has my criteria. It's not my real feeling. Just little bit lonely. I even don't enjoy texting anymore. I'm easily bored. I've got Encik Daun Pisang's number from my friend, but again, I shy. Haha!~ Maybe I will just follow Ryan Higa's footsteps to be single for a while. I hate when get hurt. Imagine, if I couple and break up for many times, is it means I have maybe 5. 7 or 20 ex-boyfriend? Hurm... Then I bubbling to my daughter that was....This is... MY EX-BOYFRIENDS.
POSITIVE SIDE: I never knew if my true love is around me, or maybe someone unexpected, or my ex again? Who knew? ALLAH know.
Cheer up! Tomorrow will be a great day. (^^,)
Labels: depression, love of my life, single
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I AM OVER YOU
Tuesday, 10 September 201303:41
Haishhhh!!!~ I'm suddenly, I'm remember 'him' when I saw this quotes:
He was my first boyfriend ever. Honestly, it's my first time someone called me 'sweet nickname' ever. It's my first time were a guy confessed his love to me. But, it doesn't last longer.
I ended our relationship on 28 February 2013. I'm tired. I'm tired to be patience. Tired to be understanding. I can't stand for another heartache anymore. Game over!
I put all blame on him. He doesn't care of me anymore, that was what I'd so to myself. He rarely replied my message. He's like don't has any mood with me. Seems he ignored me. I always remembered our sweet memories when I mad at him. I don't want our relationship ended like that.
BUT I DID.
Okay... It's really tough and I;m get depressed about it. I start to hate school. I like to be alone. I barely to delete his messages and photos. All his messages that I wrote in a book, is a rubbish now.
It tooks a long period, talk to myself. It's not just his fault. It's also mine too.
I want to forget him. Truth? I still have feelings to him. But, I let Allah decide. HE knows what the best for me more than anyone.
I'm grateful. If I don't know how is broken heart felt, I never appreciated everything around me. Especially, family and friendship.
I think my heart is okay now. Because finally I found the cure. (^_^)
Labels: broken heart, depression, love
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